President Uchtdorf gave such a great talk a while back about staying on course. He talked about how being slightly off course when flying an airplane, even being off by one degree, can put you very seriously off track.
I think in life we all have little re-alignments we need to make to keep us on course, on the path we want to be on. Even little attitude shifts can put us off a couple degrees from the path we want to be on. I think we all have days, especially as mothers, when we feel like we need to get things back in focus, find our balance, prioritize things differently.
Call me crazy but I kind of like times like these, (when I start thinking this way) because it makes me stop and think about what’s most important, and change my course a little.
And call me crazy again, but I like to kind of let it all hang out on this blog because I like to keep it real. Because we all feel overwhelmed and out-of-balance sometimes, and it can be depressing to just keep reading blogs that claim the “did it all” thing.
Just writing down how I feel makes me get my attitude kind of “re-aligned.” It makes me hold my kids (and husband!) that much closer, prompts me to do things like write them love notes or stop and do a project with them, and helps me see the “big picture” a little better.
So, I write about the bad and the good. Because I think the “bad” or “crazy” stuff makes the good stuff even better in comparison. And to be honest, sometimes I almost feel embarrassed writing down all the good stuff, because one person shouldn’t really be able to have that much good stuff in life!
One day down the road when I’m old and crotchety I don’t want to look back to this time now and think everything was just rainbows and butterflies. There’s no growth in that. I want to remember that I did hard things, and I stopped to realign myself. Hopefully those hard things will make me into the person I’m striving to become. Stronger, more valiant, more full of love. Those little realignments along the way, the being humbled craziness of trying to stay above water are, to me, what makes life so fulfilling.