Lucy has a new favorite spot…her high chair. This is a direct result of the fact that over the past week or two she has been introduced to dozens of new, delightful foods in this spot. She still hasn’t met anything she doesn’t care for…luckily keeping the good old chub rolls in tact. We wouldn’t want them to fade now that she is so active…gotta figure out a way to preserve the chub.
I had to take a picture of Lucy’s last can of formula. I know, now you really know I am crazy. I can’t believe this is my last baby and this is the end of formula. I always shift my babies to sippy cups when they’re done with formula, which usually delights me and we move on. But as I threw away some old bottles last night I just wanted to sit down and cry. I know I sound like I really need another baby, and it’s not that. I really do feel like it’s right for our family to be done. I love that we’re complete. But it’s still so sad for me. From the time I was two-years-old I longed for my own baby some day. When I was little I couldn’t believe my mom would ever let anyone else hold her newborns. I figured when I finally got to be a mom I’d never let anyone else take that baby from my arms for a second. And now here I am, all these babies have come and grown, (and believe it or not, I was ok…most of the time…to let others hold them…at least for a little while!), and as much as I do feel like I have soaked each of them in to the best of my ability, it’s just so empty to not think of another one coming. But that’s ok. I think it’s actually kind of therapeutic for me to be a little melancholy, to feel that baby love so deep. It helps me realize how great it’s been, and makes me realize even more how great this adventure of life is becoming and will continue to be as it unravels before me as my babies grow into their own souls. How I want to help nurture them into their best selves. And through my “baby blues” I’m so incredibly thankful, again, to be called “mother.” I’ll hold on to these “babies” I’ve got with all my might…please don’t grow up quite so fast!