And I meant it.
You go right along with her.
So I geared myself up for what was coming and put on a happy, smiley face to match hers.
This was going to be a great mother/daughter adventure.
At least that’s what I told myself.
We went out to dinner together first, just me and her.
We met up with her friends at the zoo entrance.
One of those girls stayed with her practically the whole night, holding her hand in the dark to guide her down the paths. She is the luckiest girl ever to have such a wonderful group of friends.
We saw the zoo lights which was an added bonus of the night.
We learned about all kinds of animals.
We did an experiment about desert animals and their ability to retain water.
We had a “night walk tour” where everyone but Lucy could see outlines of animals and big wolves up close with flashlights.
Lucy couldn’t see a thing and was tired, but she was still full of wonder.
We headed to our gigantic tents and saw more animals.
Then we rolled out all our sleeping bags by eleven o’clock among three large tents and slept.
Lucy’s most favorite animal in all the world is the lion. She was so hoping to see one at the zoo.
Low and behold the next morning those lions there gave her a little show.
She was over-the-moon about that little fact.
Despite these glowing pictures, this was as dark a night for me as it was for Lucy, but my darkness was in my heart.
It was black by the time I got home.
And there is still darkness lingering there to this day because of what I realized and learned that night about my girl and the future darkness that’s in store for her.
I won’t go into detail because it is not something I need to remember…it has been etched in my heart where unfortunately it can’t get lost.
I wonder if every mother has that darkness etched into her soul from time to time. Whether it is with a child with special needs or a myriad of so many other variables.
Sometimes that elastic binding a mother/daughter heart-pair together is too much.
So much worry.
But how I hope that night will glow in Lucy’s heart despite the darkness that veiled her eyes.
And that she never felt any of my darkness seep into her own halo of light.
Because she has a good one.
And oh, how I love her.
So proud of her grit to push and learn and DO despite some things that should hold her back. So grateful for her example to me as her mother.